You know, it never really occurred to me how much your logic and emotions clash. Your mind wants something, but your heart says no. Your heart wants something, but your mind refuses. Now what are you supposed to do? People always say, "Follow your heart." If you were scared, you'd probably listen to your mind to avoid getting hurt. But if you were willing, you'd separate the most important things from the least important things in your life. Don't ever keep the people that would hurt you on purpose in any way. Don't ever keep the people that would go behind your back and betray your trust. Don't aim for the people that just sit there and expect you to do all the work for them. Aim for the people who are willing to fight for you, the ones who are already fighting for you, the people who are willing to bleed for you so you won't have to. Aim for the people who are always by your side, the ones you can always rely on and will support you for anything, the ones who respect you, not for who you should be or what you should do but for who you truly are, the ones who want to spend every minute of every day with you, the ones you can call at 3 in the morning just 'cause you couldn't sleep, the ones who are actually worth it.
Take it from someone who knows. Chances and people have always been my weakness. I've always listened to my mind instead of my heart because getting hurt is the last thing I'd ever want to happen. I've always been the person that had to give up what I wanted just to make someone else happy. I've always been the person that had to let something go just because someone else wanted it. In other words, I've always been a selfless pushover. It's time that I develop a backbone and put my foot down. From this day on, I'm gonna aim for what I want. I'm gonna do whatever makes me happy without asking for anyone's permission. From now on, I'm going to take every chance I get and I'm going to be content with it. No more doubts. No more regrets.
But how do you know if something or someone is worth it or not? You don't. You just have to learn how to take the chance whenever you can. And after you take it, no matter the outcome, at least you'll know. You'll be a stronger person because of it. You'll be more aware and hopeful of the thing or person out there that will be more than worth your time. So don't hold back. If you want something, go for it. If you want someone, tell them. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you that you don't deserve it. Because we all deserve something in life, every single one of us, but we have to be willing to do whatever we can in order for anything to happen. Don't let your fears overcome your desires. Don't make yourself wonder what could have or might have happened ten years from now. Just take the chance. If it wasn't worth it, you'll move on with other chances. If it was, you'll move on with other chances. No matter what happens, you'll always have chances. You'll be glad, relieved almost, that you listened to your heart for once. Yes, there will be chances that make us realize just how much we can really waste our time. But there will be so many more chances that are worth all that effort. We're only human. It happens. We'll make mistakes and tell ourselves that they were a waste of time. But it's okay. Everything will be okay. You just have to get back up on your feet, continue walking, and be open to every opportunity that knocks on your door. Don't be afraid to be selfish for once. Sure, it seems like a lot to ask for, but it's really not. Just keep your heart open and go with the flow. Do whatever makes you happy. Besides, if you're not happy, then what's the point?